Loss and Heartache

I had a miscarriage on Saturday.  There is so much to write down, but I don't know if I'm ready to do all that yet.  I'm still processing.  This baby, whose body here is no longer alive, is fully complete and alive and in the glorious presence of our Daddy God.  My heart is so, so heavy and sadness washes over me in continuous waves.  Sometimes, it hits me like a ton of bricks, brings me to my knees and I have a hard time catching my breath.  Sam has been amazing.  He's fine with me just stopping to cry and get it out.  Sometimes he cries with me and he's always got his arms ready to hold me in my grief.  I don't know how long the mourning will last before it turns to joy and beautiful thoughts about a sweet person we have to wait a while to meet face to face.  I'm so grateful for our friends and family who have just poured out loved and blessing and prayed for us continually.  So grateful....